It's been a while

Hey you - I know you look for updates every day since you're pretty bored at work - sorry I haven't had any for a while.

So, technically it's been about 5 weeks since I quit. Since that point, I have owned 2 packs of cigarettes and had been sneaking them here and there. It's definitely been 10 days since I've had a smoke - so I'm pretty happy about that. It feels good. I have developed a cough in the last two weeks that is beyond annoying. I did some research and found out that there are these little hairs in your lungs that help move dust and debris out. Turns out smoking kills these little guys (which is why smokers are prone to asthma and getting sick more often, makes sense). Now they are trying to grow back and my lungs are welcoming them by making me cough like I have the plague. Good times, good times.

The dreams haven't really subsided, but I am having a much harder time remembering them. They are mostly filled with the same themes - I can't get places I need to get and I can't find things I need to find. Last night was a little easier to remember since they were so strange. I've also cut my chantix dosage back to once a day for now as I get the feeling it's really f'ing my head up. Don't worry, I checked with my doc and he said to give it a whirl. This may be the reason the dream machine has dialed down.

August 4 -

I'm sharing an apartment with a bunch of people. We have this giant fish tank with all sorts of crazy fish. It's really the focus of our lives - making sure it's perfect and the fish are happy. We had neon tetras, lots of them. For whatever reason, they had morphed into a new being that was living out of water. They basically turned into donut sized jelly fish that were glowing in the dark. They floated all over the apartment. So every day, we had to try to push them out the front door and every day they'd find their way back. That was pretty much it.

I also had a pretty dirty dream as well -but don't worry, it was about you and it was hot :)